The Stumbling Journey of a Pilgrim

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By faith Abraham obeyed when he was called to go out to a place that he was to receive as an inheritance. And he went out, not knowing where he was going. By faith he went to live in the land of promise, as in a foreign land, living in tents with Isaac and Jacob, heirs with him of the same promise.

Hebrews 11:8-9


I find it funny when people call me brave and courageous for leaving ‘home’ so often, when all the while I feel like a leaf being thrown and tossed by the wind.

It’s cliché, but my hope is in Christ alone. Growing up with parents who knew the worst thing they could do for me was allow disobedience, I learned that, even though the outcome of obedience at first may not seem ‘fun’, it is always for my good, & joy is available.

With the romanticism of traveling abroad, global missions, and vocational ministry, it seems, to me at least, that Christians forget the “adventurous ones” are still human and broken and bendable. Some are idolised and seen as “super-human”, which could not be farther from the truth.

I’m not ungrateful when comments like these come my way—I know most are meant to encourage—but for me, since I am definitely human, it is a challenge to not let such things creep into my sinful mind and fester and create a deep pride and sense of self-dependence.

Here’s the truth: every single person is made equally in the image of God; each of us were created to work as a part of one body (Body of Christ: 1 Corinthians 12:27); the ultimate command is identical for all—be a faithful sojourner of the good news that is Jesus Christ. Just because He has me doing this in Australia during this time of my life does not make me ‘Super Woman’—not even CLOSE, y’all. All these new experiences, opportunities, and circumstances only prove to me my weakness and how in need I am of a dependable God.

Friends and acquaintances keep calling me “World-Traveler”, which, the term itself, still blows my mind because it’s crazy to see how much life & a person can change so rapidly.

All these events are brand-SPANKIN’-new to me. I have no idea what I’m doing, really…BUT I have a heavenly Father who does.

Life, for anyone, is not easy—as it wasn’t intended to be. The great thing, though, is that I have a Creator (God) who loves me perfectly, a Savior (Jesus Christ) who gave His life for me, and a Guide (Holy Spirit) who further leads me to things of the Kingdom.

I wish I could be truthful in saying that everything I do is done out of faith and trust and love, but, let’s be real, I’m human. The war we, as believers, fight is truly not of flesh and blood, but of authority and spirit.

Because almost everything in this life leaves me realizing how inadequate & undeserving I am, continually I am left in deeper awe of Christ and His abounding steadfast love and graciousness toward such a sinner.

I pray these words provoke a questioning of self and dialogue between you and the Lord.


ANOTHER THING:

As mentioned in a few of my recent posts (“To the Ends of the Earth”), I am moving to Australia next Friday and I NEED YOUR HELP to get there! The remaining amount I have to raise is around $6,000 (U.S. Dollars). You can give an online donation here or write a check out to me personally.

PRAYER:

More than anything, I will need your prayers! Thankfully the Lord has kept my heart still and trusting in Him, so anxiety has not yet deeply festered in my heart, but I know for sure there will be times when that is a possibility…But I believe in the power of prayer and am earnestly asking for it from my brothers and sisters!

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May God bless you and keep you and make His face to shine upon you.

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